Tuesday, February 28
i loved you more than u'll ever know - Tuesday, February 28, 2006
O+ what my super sonic ears pick up: lifehouse - blind+O msn nick: kelly~*.
O+ msn personal msg: we might as well be strangers.``
i'm dreading school. walking up 2 flights of stairs everyday is so depressing. BLAH! and my grades have taken a nose dive. good for me.
my playlist these days are getting bloody depressing. it's either they're so damn depressing or the lyrics are speaking from one heck of an angyst teen, not that i feel both that much anyways.
eg. lifehouse's blind
"i love you more than you'll ever know. "
and
eg. keane's we might as well be strangers
"i don't know your face no more, or feel the touch that i adore."
quite some time back, a friend told me that i could have found THE ONE. i beg to differ. as much as i want to believe that is true, it's not gonna work out.
WHY?
1) cos he OBVIOUSLY doesn't feel the same way.
2) i'm way too young to start believing that i have found THE ONE.
i'm just trying to be realistic. i know girls like me dream about having a fairytale story. but how often does that happen. SERIOUSLY? rarely at the most. fairytales are just best left kept in storybooks. happily ever after,NOT!
i can't say i don't believe in love, i'm just saying that you know, i want to think more realistically and come out from my LALA land. i'm simply forcing myself to get out of there. i'm thinking medivial times at the moment, so imagine this with me.
i'm at these huge metal gates, trying to force my way out of the gates. there's this little opening btwn these two gates that i'm trying to get thru, but people keep pulling me back.
sighs.
if there's one thing i will proudly say about who i've lost trust in.
it would be my heart.
luv alwaez.
kel